Tuesday, September 27, 2011

30

Do I look like I belong in this picture??

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way."
- A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens

This quote pretty much sums up the last decade of my life, better known as the Roaring Twenties. Thirty has not yet caught hold, but neither has any age since 27, which was the last time my psyche and my age were in some sort of comfortable alignment.  

It's only day 3 and as much as I try, as much as I sit still and recite softly, "Hi, I'm 30," I'm unable to connect with it. It's like saying, "Hi, I'm Paul." And since my name isn't Paul, and I'm a girl (or grown behind woman at this point), the association is zero.

I kicked the door in for 20 and was greeted by applause, ushering me into a memorable decade in which--by the grace of God--the good, fun, laughter-filled days outweighed the scary, miserable, melancholy days.  

Conversely, I tip-toed into 30 and fortunately, the other thirty-somethings don't realize I'm here yet. Which is fine. Think I'll chill on the wall and observe for a while.

It feels strange to be a member of a whole different demographic, sharing an age bracket with people who, just last week, I considered significantly older and more grown than myself. We're neighbors now. Maybe I'll send over some bran muffins.

Nonetheless, I'm blessed to be here and curious to see how the Thirties and I will get along.

Stay tuned.

6 comments:

Vanessa said...

Well stated!!! You put my feelings into words. Almost 6 months in and I'm still on the wall...watching and waiting for my song to come on- something to substantiate and justify me being at this party of 30- somethings. Lol.

Thank you for helping me breathe that sigh of "I am not alone" and happy birthday again!!!

Great work.
vnarcisse

Me said...

Thank you Vanessa!

So you're still on the wall after 6 months, huh? Dang! I guess we'll chill here together. Let's have Jessica bring us some drinks, lol.

Justin said...

Haha! Well said indeed, Ms. Maginley! Captures how I feel too. I've been here about 4 months (welcome!), and I'm not really thinking about it any more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8SnLwU4ypY

Great stuff, Faith. Enjoyed it. :)

Me said...

Glad you enjoyed it, Justin, lol. And thanks for the link... *smile*. Forgot all about that song.

~Lisi P. said...

Happy Belated Birthday! Blessings!

Me said...

Thank you, Lisi P.!